SPG- Strict Parental Guidance. A term that changed my life.
A little more or less than a year ago, I was tweeting about one of my favorite shows. If I remember it right it was the day that the two leads finally got together. It was a normal fangirl day for me….Never did I expect I would meet these amazing girls, who became a big part of my life.
I was part of many fandoms… I mean MANY. But in my years of being in fandoms this is the first time I felt so close to people. Maybe it is because we are in the same country and we understand each other…but what I found in them is more than real friendship.
We came together in a funny way. It was the time when our favorite show was finally Rated SPG in the local network. (You know what I mean…I won’t elaborate because..)
So I met these girls who are just as excited as I am. Talk about REAL excited.
We started twitter conversations… (like when I don’t open my twitter for half a day I get 500 notifications from them. Haha.) Which turned to skype chats.. voice calls..video calls..m and finally got to meet each other. (Well, they got to. I wasn’t… the down side of leaving in a archipelago.. youbneed to cross seas)
So I want you all to meet them. Let’s start with….
Founder: Den. Dindee.Bakla.My Kambal. (Whatever her name is. Lol.)
She is the founder. Yes. She is the one who started all these SPG conversations… meaning… she has the dirtiest mind..(joke. Labyu baks) She always has these ideas and imaginations. Like…( I won’t continue you will be mentally scarred. ) She is my partner in crime and one of the greatet friends I met online.
PS. You don’t wanna et in her warfreak side… (Lol.:P)
Chairman: Em Burnal. (Though I like her real name… it fits a beauty queen)
She’s the owner of Em’s Special Talong. (Peace.chairman). She is smart. And pretty. And SPG. I mean she denies it sometimes. She says she’s ‘inosente’ from all the dirty convos. But she has ideas like… “alugan sa washer” and such… hehehe.
Supremo: Sups. Cherrylyn. Ate Che.
She and Den (founder) compete with all the SPG thoughts. I mean…they just think alike when it comes to that. She has one of the wildest imaginations like…. Ever… she is also sweet and nice and caring.. and she’s great at drawing and art.. and has a Great love story. CopyCATH!
Madam: Teacher Carol.
Yes. She is a teacher. During twitter conversations she replies the slowest but bring her to skype… and I can barely speak… (peace madam. Labyu. Haha) by the way she is also the owner of “Carol’s Amazing Upo”.
And finally Me…
I really am wondering how I got with them. I don’t even have dirty thoughts. I am too young for that.Lol. I am joking of course. There was even a time that they wouldn’t believe my age because they said I can’t be too SPG at that age. Well… welcome to our generation.
We find friends in the most weitd circumstances. I mean… I never thought i’d grow close to some people I nevet met in person. But I did, with them.. and that is one thing I would never regret. And I would like to thank #BatB the show that brought us together.
28 years ago millions of Filipinos in a Peaceful Revolution to get our democracy back.
Let us remember that day that our Nation was united in a goal to free our country from a dictator.
But let us not stop there, EDSA Revolution was just a firestarter, we should all continue to fight to really get the freedom our fatherland deserves.
Yet let us never forget the lesson the EDSA People Power Revolution taught us, violence is not always needed in the battle for freedom, most of the time it is the power of unity and prayer that will set us free.
JT was right.
Catherine, Vincent is bot like he has a switch you can flip when you ant him human or beast.
The guy has feelings and he is trying to change FOR YOU.
and it is also getting very hard to do that because of things YOU ask him to do.
Warning: May Contain spoilers from episode 14 ‘Redemption’. Read at your own Risk.
—-song excerpts from : Fix a Heart by Demi Lovato ( http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=l2oDQG6BLNQ&feature=youtube_gdata_player)
"It’s probably what’s best for you, I only want the best for you and if I’m not the best then you’re stuck.
I tried to sever ties and I ended up with wounds to bind its like you’re pouring salt in my cuts”
Vincent feels that for him to redeem himself to Catherine he has to be more Man than beast. So he wants to go on “beast cold turkey” (JT’s words. Not mine). He wants toshow her that even if he can’t totally erase the beast in his system he can atleast learn how to control it.
But then Catherine shows up and asks him to track down Sam and ‘stop’ (which means kill) the beast he created. And it is difficult for Vincent to deny her of that favor because he LOVES her and he will do anything for her. But it will mean that he has to go ‘beast’ and risk his human side getting back.
‘Leave that to the REAL doctors’.- that was a heartless thing for Cat to say. To know that V was once a doctor, V wants to save lives again. That was like stabbing him deeper with a knife that was already buried in his heart. That he is a ‘beast’ and he is not gonna have his old life back and he cannot be a REAL doctor again. (Really that was just insensitive of Cat to say. That one sentence did cut a deeper wound)
"And I just ran out of bandaids I don’t even know where to start cause you can bandage the damage you never really can fix a heart."
Vincent is conflicted. He wants to br man for her. But she asks him to beast up for help. But Vincent is afraid because he doesn’t want to succumb to his beast side again, because the last time he did. He lost the woman he loves. He lost Catherine. (Well not really lost because we know they will be the end game ;))
"Even though i know what’s wrong how could I be so sure if you never say what you feel"
‘It’s hard to be Dr. Jekyll when everyone wants you to be Mr. Hyde’ - one of my favorite lines in the episode. JT is right. At first Cat wanted Vincent to be more human. So he trues to be a man. Act his Dr. Jekyll side. But when she needs his help to track down someone she asks for Mr. Hyde. So Vincent is conflicted. But Catherine doesn’t know this. She senses something wrong when JT said that but naybe she needs it to be laid in from of her black and white.
" I must have held your hand so tight you didn’t have the will to fight I guess you needed more time to heal "
So when JT talked to Cat and told her that V is trying to have his human side back. Like she wanted before . FOR HER. BECAUSE HE WANTS TO WIN HER BACK. Cat realizes she still has that kind of hold on Vincent. That when she asks something Vincent cannot say No because he FEELS something for her. And that she is the one who has to let him heal to. Because he is confused on who she wants him to be. She realizes she wasn’t the only one conflicted and broken but also Vincent.
"Baby I just ran out of band aids I don’t even know where to start cause you can bandage the damage you never really can fix a heart"
Cat also doesn’t know where to start. Because with Vincent avoiding to be a beast. She thinks everything is falling apart. That she can’t ask him to do things that is against her will. She APPRECIATES (reasons. Gosh she is loves it) that he is doing this for her. But maybe she is held back again by her ‘relationship’ with Gabe. (Excuse me I’m gonna puke for a while)
"You must be a miracle worker swearing up and down you can fix what’s been broken yeah please don’t get my hopes up no no baby tell me how could you be so cruel
It’s like you’re pouring salt on my cuts”
Reynolds made it more complicated with that “you have to kill them especially Vincent” speech. That she is afraid that them being together again is not possible. With Reynolds “wanting to save her” “spare her from this” whatever. Builds a fear in Cat that V and her will never happen. (But IT WILL) . She was already conflicted by recent events and this adding to all of it isn’t exactly a cherry on top.
" Baby I just ran out of band aids I don’t even know where to start cause you can bandage the damage you never really can fix a heart.
~~~You never really can fix my heart”
Nobody can fix another’s heart because it is us who can fix ourselves. Once we accept who we really are then we can love again. Catherine has to accept that the beast is part of Vincent (like last year). What happened to “I accept all of what you are” ?? Cat has to realize that she cannot want Vincent to be more human this time and ask him to beast out nthe next. And Vincent?? He needs to accept himself, that Dr. Jekyll cannot be along without Mr. Hyde. The beast is part of him. But it doesn’t mean he is all beast. Him wanting to change is like a big NEON SIGN that there is humanity in him.
And when all of these are resolved, VinCat will be back. Soon.
Because A heart doesn’t need to be fixed, the scars, the bandages will be the lessons leatned which will make the heart stronger. And which will make it better when love comes again.
PS. : haven’t written in a while and typing on phone. So I am sorry for typos and some errors.
Thanks for reading!!
i heard this song by Demi lovato and I think it’s sort of describes VinCat.
Here’s the link: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NJDNjsc7nRA&feature=youtube_gdata_player.
(Forgive me. I am sort of not making sense right now. I have sort of probpems with love also)
"I hate you, don’t leave me
I feel like I can’t breathe
Just hold me, don’t touch me
And I want you to love me
But I need you to trust me
Stay with me, set me free”
The past episode, i think Cat was very torn between her heart and what was right. She knew shooting Vincent was right because it would save his humanity and the guilt he will be in when he kills Reynolds. But in her heart, she is worried about him because she just put a bullet in the gut of the guy she loves and that made a BIG DAMAGE on their relationship.
Stay with me, Set me Free. That was her struggle, she wants V in her life, no doubt but she wants to be free from everything else. She hates what V did but she doesn’t want him out of her life.
"But I can’t back down No, I can’t deny That I’m staying now Cause I can’t decide Confused and scared I am terrified of you"
Cat knew that the moment she pulled that trigger there was no backing down. She had stained their relationship. She wanted to be out of his life thinking it is for the better since he didn’t choose to save their love. But there was something in her that makes her want to stay with Vincent. There was this gut feeling that keeps her connected to him. And no matter how scared of being heartbroken again, that is a fact she can’t deny.
"I admit I’m in and out of my head
Don’t listen to a single word I’ve said
Just hear me out before you run away
Cause I can’t take this pain”
And then she came to him and found the pads of blood. And she knew she had done great damage. Yet talking to him is her only way of settling things. But the pain will always remain. So will the guilt. So will the Love.
"I hate you, don’t leave me
Cause I love when you kiss me
I’m in pieces, you complete me”
Vincent is mad at Cat. Or just confused why she shot him. There is pain in his eyes when he saw her. When she said she didn’t want it to end yet it has. Like there was a piece of him missing. And in that moment he knew it was her. His Catherine.
"But I can’t back down No, I can;t deny That I’m staying now ‘Cause I can’t decide Confused and scared I am terrified of you"
But the moment he decided to kill Reynolds he knew that he crossed a line that she would never accept. But he was scared, scared that she would choose her father over him. And when she shot him. He did not know what to think anymore.
"I’m addicted to the madness
I’m a daughter of the sadness
I’ve been here too many times before
Been abandoned and I’m scared now
I can’t handle another fall out
I’m fragile, just washed upon the shore
They forget me, don’t see me
When they love me, they leave me”
Vincent and Catherine. Two hearts. Two people who fell inlove in the darkest places. They have been through alot. Yet fate keeps on testing them.
They both know the feeling of abandonment. They both experienced loss. Yet they found each other. And now that destiny has chosen to shake them the fear of being left is back and keeps on hunting them.
Their love has been on many challenges. But will they be able to keep their promise of being with each other in all the ups, and downs, and loop-the-loops?
Only Fate can answer that.
"I admit I’m in and out of my head
Don’t listen to a single word I’ve said
Just hear me out before you run away
‘Cause I can’t take this pain
No, I can’t take this pain “
—I hate you, don’t leave me I hate you, please love me—
(Song excerpts from: I hate you, Don’t leave me by Demi Lovato)
It is only when you learn to ket go of everything else that you can truly be happy.
Rollercoaster. Yes, it was one big rollercoaster ride, with ups and downs and loop-the-loops.
Like a little girl who saw a rollercoaster in one big themepark for the first time i was so excited to jump in and try the journey. But like everyone felt upon sitting on that cart and seeing all the seatbelts and safety precautions i realized it was gonna be one hell of a trip.
Anxiousness began to build up. And as i was beginnng to thnk of backing out and abandoning the ride. It struck 12MN. The engines started and there was No Way i could have gone down from the cart.
I felt every emotion starting to feel my being, i felt fear and i was doutbful of my fate. But since I have to no other choice. ” To Hell with it”. I tried to enjoy the ride.
And now, in a few hours, we have to leave the carts we’ve been in for 365 and 1/4 days and try a new ride. The world is one big themepark, we choose the rides we jump into. Well you could choose a carousel, a safe one, yet somehow boring. Or you could choose a ferris wheel and go with life’s Ups and Downs slowly yet surely.
But for me. I choose to take the Human Trebuchet. Catapult my way through 2014. I choose a ride that will let me defy gravity. I choose to let go of everything. Because the Past is in the Past.
People may think I am crazy to take the risk in this, that all that goes up eventually goes down, but who knows i may land on the highest mountain. :D
Like Elsa said (well sang) in Disney’s Frozen.
“Let it Go. Turn away and slam the door. I don’t care what they’re going to say. Let the Storm Rage on. THE COLD NEVER BOTHERED ME ANYWAY”
So to everyone, HAPPY NEW YEAR!
And piece of advice, choose the ride you take WISELY, this themepark never runs out of choices anyway. Coz that ride you choose is how your journey for 365 and 1/4 days will be.
This is RatedSPJHE. 12.31.13
(PHOTO ABOVE informs everyone where donations and help for TYPHOON HAIYAN / YOLANDA victims)
“Yolanda, bagyo ka lang. PINOY KAMI!” (Yolanda aka Haiyan you’re just a typhoon. WE ARE FILIPINOS!)
A week ago the world’s strongest super typhoon hit the Philippines especially the Visayas area. The aftermath was horrible. Homes were destroyed, lives were taken. The rich and poor, children and adults, men and women, politicians and citizens, nobody was chosen. Everyone experienced the dreadful wind and rain of Yolanda. And now, the Philippines is suffering from the aftermath. The victims are hungry, homeless, dirty, lost. It took long for relief goods and help to reach them due to road difficulties and travel problems.
But as the country suffers from this. We can still say the Philippines is blessed. Help is pouring down on us stronger than Yolanda’s wind. Everyone is helping out. Each Filipino makes an effort to help out. And even foreigners are sending their help. Billions of goods and cash donations were sent and are now only waiting to be deployed in certain affected areas.
This shows us that the Filipino “BAYANIHAN” (helping each other out) is never lost and it is not just unique to us Filipinos. The world also joins us in this climb back up. Carrying our house up the hill again.
No help is small. You don’t have to have money to help out. You can help in any way you can. Donate goods or cash. VOLUNTEER to relief operations. Post and repost anything that helps spread the news online. REPOST. REBLOG. RETWEET this article.
Many have died. Some lost their brothers, sisters and parents. Some lost homes. Some have no food to eat. But “BAYANIHAN” always there. Our faith is what we have. And nothing should ever be able to take our spirit away. Especially not a Super Typhoon named YOLANDA – because, the PINOY SPIRIT IS WATERPROOF!
“Yolanda, bagyo ka lang. PINOY KAMI!”
This is Me as a Filipino asking for all you prayers for the Philippines.
The strongest Typhoon/Hurricane formed in 2013 has Landfell on the Philippines earlier today.
Typhoon signals have been raised upto signal #s3-4 in some provinces.
and typhoon signals 1&2 in neighboring areas.
i am whole heartedly asking for your prayers to keep our country safe.
- source CNN.